Chapter 5 : Make Up For Me?
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Is there any good news to tell her, for example, he is going to marry his sister Ai Qing, but there is no need to tell her specifically, and she really doesn't want to know at all.
Xiao Qi's eyes fell on her and stared for a long time. Meng Yu was surprised. She didn't understand his eyes, he would never look at her with such concentrated eyes.
"What's the matter with you?"
At this time, Xiao Qi's heart is a bit complicated.
In fact, at first, Xiao Qi didn't feel much after they broke up. Over the years, he has been used to handling everything calmly.
He still goes to get off work on time every day. What he should do, his life seems not to be affected by this.
It started to make him realize that the problem was two months after the breakup. When he returned home that day, he opened the door and saw a familiar figure flashing past the bedroom door.
That bedroom was the one she lived in when she came.
He was stunned immediately, absentmindedly, his body was faster than his brain, He quickly walked over, but the room was empty, everything was neatly arranged, since she left, no one has lived here so the room is really clean and tidy that there are no traces of her staying.
She was not here at all, the shadow that flashed before his eyes was just his illusion.
It was the beginning of the Hua Deng, the bustling traffic outside the window, the bright lights illuminating the entire city. He sat on the bed blankly, a strange feeling of loneliness suddenly appeared in his heart.
(T/N: At the beginning of Hua Deng is a Chinese idiom (pinyin is huá dēng chū shàng) which means that a lamp with beautiful light has just been lit, and it is generally used to describe the city scene just after nightfall. From "Songs of the Chu: Calling the Soul".)
This sense of loneliness was inexplicable. He thought that after his parents passed away one after another, he had been accustomed to being alone for so many years, but now sitting alone on the small bed where she had slept, he felt depressed and uncomfortable.
This feeling lasted for a long time. During this period, Ai Qing brought Huanhuan to accompany him. Even though he felt that being with this mother and daughter made him feel warm and happy, but now, even with their laughter at home the loneliness is still lingering, he always feels that something is missing.
It was strange that he had never felt this kind of missing for her and since seeing her apparition that day, he always thought of her from time to time, even when they were together he rarely thought of her.
Thinking about when she suddenly jumped to him and frightened him, then she narrowed her eyes and asked him, "Do you miss me?"
Or when she wore a newly bought dress and walked around him in circles, then she held her chin on him with a pretty face "Do you feel lucky to have such a beautiful girlfriend like me?"
He still remembers that every time she asked like this, he always turned his head away in silence, but before that, even a cold person like him could not help being shocked by her beauty that his heartbeat missed half a beat.
She is always so vivid and bright and she seems to melt snow and ice when she laughs.
Just thinking about her is not enough, he often dreamed of her, but after waking up from the dream, he was left with a loss. She was no longer there and she had already broken up with him.
After another five months in this way, she still hasn’t contacted him. She has never been away from him for such a long time. When they were together, although she would not harass him by phone every day, she would always call him every one or two days.
He found that he began to be unable to adapt to life without her. The girl named Meng Yu always liked to be around him. She always smiled at him. When he does something, she holds her face and stares blankly at him.
But now, these daily scenes have not appeared for five months.
He started to panic. He finally couldn't help but dialed her number. It was a rare opportunity for him to call her, but unexpectedly, the other side was always busy. Then he realized that she had changed her number and blocked him. He contacted her again using other communication software, but it still surprised him. She deleted all his numbers. He asked to add as a friend but he always failed.
This sense of panic is getting stronger.
Even though he couldn't figure out why this happened, he had become accustomed to her life by his side, he had never thought that she would leave him so he doesn't know what to do.
He thought about when she broke up with him five months ago. He always thought that she would come back by herself. He was used to being chased by her. In his perception, Meng Yu could not live without him.
But this time, she seemed to have come for real.
This sense of panic brings many sequelae. For example, he often makes common sense mistakes at work. For example, when he and Ai Qing ate together, he would call Meng Yu's name unconsciously. Another example, he started to have insomnia, especially when he dreamed of her. At night, he always couldn't sleep for a long time.
He started trying to find her, but she already moved and he didn’t know where she went. Later, he found out the address of her new home through various means. He went to her new home to find her several times but she was not there. Later, he heard that she had gone on a trip and the location was uncertain so he couldn't find her.
During this period of time, he would come to her place every weekend and knock on her door. Every time he returned in disappointment. Until yesterday he got the news of her return. He couldn’t wait to buy the ticket early this morning to Feiyan City. When he knocked on her door no one responded, he waited for her in the underground garage.
He have been waiting for a long time before finally seeing her appear.
He haven't seen her for more than a year and her hair has grown. Other than that, she doesn't seem to have changed. She is still so beautiful, her figure is still so slender, and her complexion is neither sad nor happy. He couldn't tell that she was a brokenhearted person.
But when he think about it carefully, it has been more than a year since they broke up. More than a year is enough to calm many things. However, more than a year has not allowed him to calm down his feelings for her, even inexplicably, the longer she left him, the more he miss her, but obviously she is not like that.
Her calmness made him a little angry, but the joy of seeing her again finally overwhelmed everything. He hurriedly pushed the door and got out of the car, feeling a little nervous for a while, he didn't call her name until she was about to get on the elevator.
She turned her head and looked at him. He kept paying attention to her expression. She didn't show any joy when she saw him again. She looked so calm and asked him why he came here.
Why come here, of course, to find her.
He has never held a low profile in front of her, nor has he taken the initiative to come to her. He was a little uncomfortable, but after all he really wanted her to return to him.
So he was silent for a while and said, “I’m sorry, I didn’t do well before. I made you feel insecure. Sister Ai Qing and I were not what you thought. I was able to go to school because of their family’s support. When she’s in trouble, I should help her, this is what I owe her."
"Oh?" Meng Yu said mockingly, "You can repay her favor in many ways. You don't need to do everything yourself, and you don't need to be a cheap father, right? Buying a house for someone to raise her daughter is not enough, you even have to take them to the company and home. It’s understandable that you have to pay back the favor, but why don’t you think about me as your girlfriend? I’m not as generous as you, Xiao Qi, you can accept her childern calling you father but I can't accept it."
It was over anyway, of course she didn't need to think about it so much. She would say whatever she was upset about and she probably guessed how Xiao Qi would answer. He will say that she is still young and doesn't care about children, or he will say, Meng Yu, you shouldn't be so headstrong. Anyway, she has to compromise for him, he is probably used to it.
Meng Yu suddenly felt bored and didn't want to hear his answer at all.
She was about to turn around and leave, but she heard him say, "I didn't deal with it and made you sad, sorry. Don't worry, you won't hear Huanhuan calling me father again."
She paused and looked at him suddenly. Did she hear it right? Xiao Qi actually compromised with her?
But, what is the use, it is over.
She shook her head, her complexion didn't have any waves, her voice was extremely calm and said to him, "There is no future Xiao Qi, we are over."
Meng Yu got on the elevator. Before the elevator closed, Xiao Qi walked over and squeezed into the elevator forcefully. He stood beside her and looked down at her, meeting her puzzled eyes, and said to her, "I will make it up to you, yes. I will slowly repay my debt."
Meng Yu "..."
Owe? Make up? She could actually hear these words from Xiao Qi, it was really a lifetime series. She thought of her for so many years by his side, his indifference, his non-response, and when he let her down with his coldness time and time again. Why did he think of making up until now? He didn't want to look at her when she loved him the most and only made up when she was about to forget him. Isn't it too late? She didn't expect it anymore.
"No, it's over. You don't need to make it up for me. Last time I said that I wanted to break up. Didn't you agree to it? Now that you agree, why don't you just be a bit easier?"
Xiao Qi didn't speak but looked at her quietly. He looked at her with deep and complicated eyes and seemed to have a thousand words to say to her. She even felt that there was a kind of full and deep affection in his eyes, which he had never shown before her.
There was silence in the elevator and it took a while to hear him say, "If I don't do anything, I'm afraid I will regret it."
Meng Yu suddenly wanted to laugh when he heard these words. She really didn't expect Xiao Qi to look at her with such affectionate eyes one day and say something to make up for her. He is always so cold, no matter how hard she loves him, he doesn't care about it.
Now she finally made up her mind to leave, but he ran to tell her that he wanted to make up for her.
What's the point?
It's so ridiculous!
And... she is going to marry someone else.
Just as the elevator door opened, Meng Yu walked out with a calm expression on her face and said to him, "It's already late Xiao Qi, it's impossible for us in this life."
Xiao Qi's eyes fell on her and stared for a long time. Meng Yu was surprised. She didn't understand his eyes, he would never look at her with such concentrated eyes.
"What's the matter with you?"
At this time, Xiao Qi's heart is a bit complicated.
In fact, at first, Xiao Qi didn't feel much after they broke up. Over the years, he has been used to handling everything calmly.
He still goes to get off work on time every day. What he should do, his life seems not to be affected by this.
It started to make him realize that the problem was two months after the breakup. When he returned home that day, he opened the door and saw a familiar figure flashing past the bedroom door.
That bedroom was the one she lived in when she came.
He was stunned immediately, absentmindedly, his body was faster than his brain, He quickly walked over, but the room was empty, everything was neatly arranged, since she left, no one has lived here so the room is really clean and tidy that there are no traces of her staying.
She was not here at all, the shadow that flashed before his eyes was just his illusion.
It was the beginning of the Hua Deng, the bustling traffic outside the window, the bright lights illuminating the entire city. He sat on the bed blankly, a strange feeling of loneliness suddenly appeared in his heart.
(T/N: At the beginning of Hua Deng is a Chinese idiom (pinyin is huá dēng chū shàng) which means that a lamp with beautiful light has just been lit, and it is generally used to describe the city scene just after nightfall. From "Songs of the Chu: Calling the Soul".)
This sense of loneliness was inexplicable. He thought that after his parents passed away one after another, he had been accustomed to being alone for so many years, but now sitting alone on the small bed where she had slept, he felt depressed and uncomfortable.
This feeling lasted for a long time. During this period, Ai Qing brought Huanhuan to accompany him. Even though he felt that being with this mother and daughter made him feel warm and happy, but now, even with their laughter at home the loneliness is still lingering, he always feels that something is missing.
It was strange that he had never felt this kind of missing for her and since seeing her apparition that day, he always thought of her from time to time, even when they were together he rarely thought of her.
Thinking about when she suddenly jumped to him and frightened him, then she narrowed her eyes and asked him, "Do you miss me?"
Or when she wore a newly bought dress and walked around him in circles, then she held her chin on him with a pretty face "Do you feel lucky to have such a beautiful girlfriend like me?"
He still remembers that every time she asked like this, he always turned his head away in silence, but before that, even a cold person like him could not help being shocked by her beauty that his heartbeat missed half a beat.
She is always so vivid and bright and she seems to melt snow and ice when she laughs.
Just thinking about her is not enough, he often dreamed of her, but after waking up from the dream, he was left with a loss. She was no longer there and she had already broken up with him.
After another five months in this way, she still hasn’t contacted him. She has never been away from him for such a long time. When they were together, although she would not harass him by phone every day, she would always call him every one or two days.
He found that he began to be unable to adapt to life without her. The girl named Meng Yu always liked to be around him. She always smiled at him. When he does something, she holds her face and stares blankly at him.
But now, these daily scenes have not appeared for five months.
He started to panic. He finally couldn't help but dialed her number. It was a rare opportunity for him to call her, but unexpectedly, the other side was always busy. Then he realized that she had changed her number and blocked him. He contacted her again using other communication software, but it still surprised him. She deleted all his numbers. He asked to add as a friend but he always failed.
This sense of panic is getting stronger.
Even though he couldn't figure out why this happened, he had become accustomed to her life by his side, he had never thought that she would leave him so he doesn't know what to do.
He thought about when she broke up with him five months ago. He always thought that she would come back by herself. He was used to being chased by her. In his perception, Meng Yu could not live without him.
But this time, she seemed to have come for real.
This sense of panic brings many sequelae. For example, he often makes common sense mistakes at work. For example, when he and Ai Qing ate together, he would call Meng Yu's name unconsciously. Another example, he started to have insomnia, especially when he dreamed of her. At night, he always couldn't sleep for a long time.
He started trying to find her, but she already moved and he didn’t know where she went. Later, he found out the address of her new home through various means. He went to her new home to find her several times but she was not there. Later, he heard that she had gone on a trip and the location was uncertain so he couldn't find her.
During this period of time, he would come to her place every weekend and knock on her door. Every time he returned in disappointment. Until yesterday he got the news of her return. He couldn’t wait to buy the ticket early this morning to Feiyan City. When he knocked on her door no one responded, he waited for her in the underground garage.
He have been waiting for a long time before finally seeing her appear.
He haven't seen her for more than a year and her hair has grown. Other than that, she doesn't seem to have changed. She is still so beautiful, her figure is still so slender, and her complexion is neither sad nor happy. He couldn't tell that she was a brokenhearted person.
But when he think about it carefully, it has been more than a year since they broke up. More than a year is enough to calm many things. However, more than a year has not allowed him to calm down his feelings for her, even inexplicably, the longer she left him, the more he miss her, but obviously she is not like that.
Her calmness made him a little angry, but the joy of seeing her again finally overwhelmed everything. He hurriedly pushed the door and got out of the car, feeling a little nervous for a while, he didn't call her name until she was about to get on the elevator.
She turned her head and looked at him. He kept paying attention to her expression. She didn't show any joy when she saw him again. She looked so calm and asked him why he came here.
Why come here, of course, to find her.
He has never held a low profile in front of her, nor has he taken the initiative to come to her. He was a little uncomfortable, but after all he really wanted her to return to him.
So he was silent for a while and said, “I’m sorry, I didn’t do well before. I made you feel insecure. Sister Ai Qing and I were not what you thought. I was able to go to school because of their family’s support. When she’s in trouble, I should help her, this is what I owe her."
"Oh?" Meng Yu said mockingly, "You can repay her favor in many ways. You don't need to do everything yourself, and you don't need to be a cheap father, right? Buying a house for someone to raise her daughter is not enough, you even have to take them to the company and home. It’s understandable that you have to pay back the favor, but why don’t you think about me as your girlfriend? I’m not as generous as you, Xiao Qi, you can accept her childern calling you father but I can't accept it."
It was over anyway, of course she didn't need to think about it so much. She would say whatever she was upset about and she probably guessed how Xiao Qi would answer. He will say that she is still young and doesn't care about children, or he will say, Meng Yu, you shouldn't be so headstrong. Anyway, she has to compromise for him, he is probably used to it.
Meng Yu suddenly felt bored and didn't want to hear his answer at all.
She was about to turn around and leave, but she heard him say, "I didn't deal with it and made you sad, sorry. Don't worry, you won't hear Huanhuan calling me father again."
She paused and looked at him suddenly. Did she hear it right? Xiao Qi actually compromised with her?
But, what is the use, it is over.
She shook her head, her complexion didn't have any waves, her voice was extremely calm and said to him, "There is no future Xiao Qi, we are over."
Meng Yu got on the elevator. Before the elevator closed, Xiao Qi walked over and squeezed into the elevator forcefully. He stood beside her and looked down at her, meeting her puzzled eyes, and said to her, "I will make it up to you, yes. I will slowly repay my debt."
Meng Yu "..."
Owe? Make up? She could actually hear these words from Xiao Qi, it was really a lifetime series. She thought of her for so many years by his side, his indifference, his non-response, and when he let her down with his coldness time and time again. Why did he think of making up until now? He didn't want to look at her when she loved him the most and only made up when she was about to forget him. Isn't it too late? She didn't expect it anymore.
"No, it's over. You don't need to make it up for me. Last time I said that I wanted to break up. Didn't you agree to it? Now that you agree, why don't you just be a bit easier?"
Xiao Qi didn't speak but looked at her quietly. He looked at her with deep and complicated eyes and seemed to have a thousand words to say to her. She even felt that there was a kind of full and deep affection in his eyes, which he had never shown before her.
There was silence in the elevator and it took a while to hear him say, "If I don't do anything, I'm afraid I will regret it."
Meng Yu suddenly wanted to laugh when he heard these words. She really didn't expect Xiao Qi to look at her with such affectionate eyes one day and say something to make up for her. He is always so cold, no matter how hard she loves him, he doesn't care about it.
Now she finally made up her mind to leave, but he ran to tell her that he wanted to make up for her.
What's the point?
It's so ridiculous!
And... she is going to marry someone else.
Just as the elevator door opened, Meng Yu walked out with a calm expression on her face and said to him, "It's already late Xiao Qi, it's impossible for us in this life."
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Only remembered her when you are lonely huh. Well, as a song goes 'only miss the sun when it starts to snow'. Buhbye Xiao Qi.
ReplyDeleteHow cant you leave someone so lovely like that. I envy him, i want to being love like that too. T.T
ReplyDeleteHehe goodbye!
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